sometimes i wish i was not interested in so many things in this life. everything would be so much easier. like it wouldn’t be a huge dilemma to choose a college or the type of education you wanna go for. but i am obviously not one of those people. thus i have been driving myself insane with brainstorming about my options as for further studies. it’s fun but it isn’t. it’s fun that i could do so many different things but it’s not fun ’cause how do you choose? i wish i could do all of it at the same time. that would mean i would be an acting and nursing student while working as a musician and interpretor working on my MA degree in english-american literature learning spanish and french in my free time, possibly travelling in the meantime, posssibly having babies as well-from a husband of course…is that really too much to ask?! seriously though, a few months ago i was only excited and absolutely psyched about ALL the possibilities that lay ahead of me, that basicaly i could do ANYTHING. i am still excited but getting a little frustrated too. it is always hard for me to choose the BEST out of a LOT OF GOOD ideas. it’s a tough life i know anyways, i know i need to make a decision myself and no one else will do it for me. but i could use some prayers por favor and i promise i let you know if some kind of a progress occures on this part of my life

neha azt kivanom, ne erdekelne ennyi minden ebben az eletben. minden annira sokkal konnyebb lenne. peldaul nem lenne akkora dilemma egyetemet vagy oktatasi format valasztani. de lathatoan nem ezek koze az emberek koze tartozom. ebbol adodoan lassan megoritem magam ahogyan probalok dulore jutni azzal kapcsolatban, hogy mit tanulhatnek meg. ez jo is, mert annyi mindent csinalhanek, de nem annyira poen, mert hogyan valasszak?  barcsak mindent egyszerre tudnek csinalni, ami erdekel. ez azt jelentene, hogy szinesznovendek es nover-novendek lennek, mikozben zeneszkent es tolmacskent dolgozom, es a mester-diplomamon dolgoznek angol-amerikai irodalombol, szabadidomben franciat es spanyolt tanulva, lehetoleg sokat utazva mindekozben, es lehetoleg gyerekeket szulve mindekozben- egy ferjtol persze… olyan nagy keres ez?! de most komolyan, par honappal ezelott meg csak izgatott voltam es neurotikusan pozitiv MINDENNEL kapcsolatban ami elottem volt, hogy tulajdonkeppen BARMIT csinalhatok. ez meg mindig megvan, de egy kicist frusztralt vagyok azert most mar. mindig nehez a LEGJOBBAT falasztani a SOK JO OTLET kozul. tudom, nehez az elet szoval tudom, hogy senki mas nem hozhatja meg helyettem ezt a dontest, mert nekem kell valasztanom. de jol jonne egy-ket ima por favor:-) es igerem tudatom, ha eletem ezen teruleten nemi nemu valtozas kovetkezik be.